delorita: (Holmes Watson snuggle)
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Title: Love
Author: by Delorita
Pairing/Characters: Holmes/Watson
Rating: R (to be on the save site)
Word Count: 1311
Spoilers: none
Summary: Have a look at Holmes's and Watson's feelings about each other.

Notes/Warnings: This is completely inspired by this http://community.livejournal.com/holmeswatson09/378689.html extraordinary manip from [livejournal.com profile] tabby_stardust.
It rendered me completely speechless, left the image printed into my brain and let my muse write in this strange form and in changing POVs. Please be gentle with me, I know they don't sound much different, but that's due to the fact that I didn't see the movie in original yet and nether had the time to read the huge book. Big thanks for the fast help and the encouraging words of my dear beta [livejournal.com profile] ladylovelace

Disclaimer: not mine, just playing and not making any money.



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Holmes's POV


I want to crawl under your skin.

I want to be even closer than I already am.

I never get enough of your strong hands on my back and my head.

I feel your breathing against my face.

I just surrendered to you because you make me whole.

You calm my over-sensitive senses to the outside world.

You are soothing me, giving me strength until I can be myself again.


You do not know any of these things, since I never tell you.

But you seem to have developed a sixth sense all things regarding me.

When you look at me I am getting the impression you can read me as I can read other people.


I did not want to be that weak.

No.

I have fought this for months. Years, maybe.

The unnatural urge to be too close to you.

The forbidden dreams about you, kissing me, doing things to me no one ever has.

I wanted to wash it away with lots of alcohol, drown it with cocaine and morphine.

But all it did was to bring you even closer to me.

You refused to see me suffer, refused to let me destroy myself.

You said you are my doctor.

When I would not listen, you pleaded with me as my friend.

It was there and then that I saw something in your eyes that made my breath hitch.

Something I had never seen before.

My mind was not clouded with drugs at that very moment.

You stepped closer and closer, straightening your back as to steal yourself for a life altering question.

Your voice sounded so gentle when you spoke my name.

"Holmes..."

I felt warmth spread over my body, just from the way you said that one single word.

I could not speak at that moment. I was astonished to see the same feelings I had for you written openly on your face for me.

We locked gazes, drawing closer.

Your hands were on my shoulders, mine crept upwards, hesitantly to your face and neck.

"It is a crime, Watson," whispered I.

"I do not care." You breathed against my mouth.

I pulled your head towards me, your fingers tightened on my upper arm.

When I felt your other hand in my hair, a moan escaped me and without further thinking I touched my lips to yours.

Your moustache tickled most pleasantly and your appreciative hum made me grin.

You drew your head back shortly, to smile back at me, pulling my body nearer towards you all the same.

I muttered, "yes" and then we kissed properly.

Lips and bodies melting into each other, tongues exploring each others mouths throughout.

You hugged me against you in such a manner, I got the impression, that just as myself, you had wanted to do that for years.

Now I am laying here in your arms and you may think I am asleep. I am not. I savour this moment of utter satisfaction and bliss just in case it was only a dream.

I feel your lips on my brow and am utterly relieved to find out that it was not another drug addict's dream.

That we a real, like this.

Together.


+++++++++++++ ATTENTION changing POV+++++++++++


Watson's POV


I turn slightly and gently press my lips to your brow.

You snuggle even closer into me, as though you want to be inside me.

I let my fingers slowly wander down your bare, muscular back and up again to your neck.

It is a miracle to have you here with me, like that.

My left hand keeps stroking your thick, black curls. A thing I wanted to do since eternity. Finally you gave me the signal that I can.

Your hands are entwined on my shoulder plate.

Your embrace is so tight, as though you never want to let go of me.

That's why I know you are not sleeping. You never seem to sleep much anyway.

You are a genius.

My genius.

That is why I never was brave enough to show the true feelings I harboured for you.

You fight crime. You would not tolerate crime in your own home.

Our home.

You got me terribly worried when you detached yourself from me and got lost in your drugs.

I was at a complete loss.

All I could do was to keep a very close eye on you.

I stayed with you day and night, watching you in your delirium.

Watching you forget about your surroundings, forget about your incredible skill of detection.

Watching you fall into a dark place of deep depression.

My heart was aching almost beyond bearing.

One day you muttered something in one of your delirious dreams. It sounded like a mantra; like the same words over and over again.

I crouched beside you to hold my ear against your feverish lips.

You had moaned, "dear John... my dear Watson... I need you... do not leave me, I want you..." The words had left me puzzled at first, and I dared to hope they meant what I thought.

When I hesitantly had a glance at your lower body, seeing your pants were hiding a painful bulge at your groin, I knew what you were trying to conceal from me.

A huge weight lifted from my soul and I exhaled the breath I did not know I was holding. I surely would be able to help you with that...if you let me.

So I decided as soon as you had a clear moment, to just come out myself. Insanely hoping it would make you do the same.

*

When I feel your delicious weight on me at this moment, pressing me down into the mattress of your bed, I can barely recall those horrendous hours.

Your breath ghosts over my bare chest and I stifle a sigh not to wake you.

But you move your head just slightly and your lips and tongue start to make their way up my throat, across my jaw, towards my ear.

I have both my hands in your hair and your arousal is growing alongside mine. I want the woollen blanket that separates them gone.

You chuckle throatily in my ear and I gasp when a swift flick of your hand removes the distracting cloth.

We hiss in pure bliss when bare, smooth skin rubs against hard flesh.

I press you even closer to me and your, "my dear Watson" makes me all fuzzy and I want to melt completely into you. I sigh deeply and entangle my legs with yours.

You look at me, starting to rock slightly. A mischievous grin is playing around your beautiful lips. I stroke my index finger across your unshaven chin, muttering, "my dear Holmes."

You close your eyes briefly, then bend and bite at my moustache.

Your unexpected gesture makes me laugh out loud and you do not stop, but examine it closely with your lips and tongue.

"Do you want me to shave it off?"

"Don't you dare..." You chuckle and move in to kiss me in earnest and I respond with the same hunger. Our tongues dancing the dance of utter pleasure, our bodies start to move of their own accord.

Harder.

Faster.

With an urgency that was kept under control for so many years from both of us, it spirals us straight into heaven and we fly there for several very precious moments.

When we lay quiet again, settling into our former position, I hear you say into my ear, "That certain activity with you, my dear fellow, is the only crime I ..." You bite my earlobe, considering,"...love to indulge in."

And with that, you really fall asleep.

I chuckle, pull the discarded blanket over both of us and enjoy the moment without feeling guilty, caressing your marvellous body in your peaceful slumber.

F I N

Date: 2010-03-13 10:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] acaranna.livejournal.com
*jaw drops to the floor*
Wow, that was emotion put into words and even though I haven't seen the movie I can honestly say you painted some good feelings here.
Really good work.

Date: 2010-03-14 06:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
Thanks so much for reading anyway and commenting! I get carried away with emotions sometimes ;) So you do know them from the books or plan to see the movie?

Date: 2010-03-14 11:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] acaranna.livejournal.com
From the books but I plan to see the movie, too.

Date: 2010-03-15 06:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
I hope you'll enjoy the movie as much as I did! The fact that Holmes isn't as tall as in the books may get fans puzzled but I actually didn't care because Robert pulls him off so perfectly *sigh*

Date: 2010-03-15 09:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] acaranna.livejournal.com
I don't care if he's tall or short because if he plays the character well enough that's all I care about.

Date: 2010-03-16 08:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
oh now I am crossing my fingers that he will please you! When will you be able to see it?

Date: 2010-03-16 10:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] acaranna.livejournal.com
Don't know since I still have to work on my paper for university.

Date: 2010-03-13 11:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dante-s-hell.livejournal.com
Ooh, how very sweet. I love the tender moments between them. *Sigh* well done. Thank you for sharing.

Date: 2010-03-14 06:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
thanks so much for taking the time for commenting. I think the tender moments between them are very precious since they have to hide them so carefully and that makes the couple so very interesting for me :D

Date: 2010-03-13 11:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] laurazel.livejournal.com
Oh My... I'm all mushy now! <3<3<3 Awwwwww

Date: 2010-03-14 06:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
lolol yeah well, the pic made me a bit (or a lot?) mushy too lol

Are you mushy enough to draw us something nice? nnaaaa I am not greedy, nonono...but probably addicted, too lol

Date: 2010-03-13 11:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] inesdelsol.livejournal.com
*sighs*

pure beauty
poetic longing

thank you *hugs*

Date: 2010-03-14 06:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
Thank YOU for reading, liking it and commenting!!! *hugs you*

Date: 2010-03-14 11:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] candygram-5000.livejournal.com
Wow *melting* Bliss and poetic haze... Wonderful!

Date: 2010-03-15 06:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
merciiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!! Thanks for reading! And for a change I tried not to be overly graphic with the s-e-x ;)

Date: 2010-03-14 01:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] moxy-apricot.livejournal.com
hurrrrrrr derp derp derp *incoherency at its finest*

their need for each other always, ALWAYS reduces me to a puddle. well done <3

Date: 2010-03-14 08:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
yessssss neeeeeddddd!! THEY SO NEED each other! One just can't excist without the other. Thanks so much for the incoherent Fb ;);)

Date: 2010-03-14 02:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tabby-stardust.livejournal.com
Oooh. This is very poetic. You have captured their emotions beautifully. I'm so happy you wrote this. :D

Date: 2010-03-14 08:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
:D:D so is this what you had in mind when you did it? I am still in awe at the emotion you put in that manip. Holmes feeling all save and loved but possessive of his lover at the same time. And Watson so thoughtful, not able to sleep yet...awww looks like I could write even more lol So glad you say it's poetic :D

Date: 2010-03-15 07:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tabby-stardust.livejournal.com
Yes, emotionally this is pretty close! I never really thought of what actually happened before or after, and it's really interesting to read someone else's interpretation based on the picture.

And I certainly hope you will write more! :D

Date: 2010-03-16 07:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
Knowing me and my muse, I will write more. Not sure when, though. I love the fact, that they are actually not allowed to do this. Gives it a special thrill. Not like nowadays, when homosexuality does freak people out sometimes but when it's not forbidden anymore!

Date: 2010-03-16 11:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tabby-stardust.livejournal.com
I shall look forward to it then. :)

Yes, you're right, the fact that it's forbidden makes it a lot more interesting and exciting. I guess that's one reason why I also enjoy Master and Commander slash so much.

Date: 2010-03-17 06:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
Master and Commander...never saw the movie. It's Russel Crowe and?

Date: 2010-03-17 11:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tabby-stardust.livejournal.com
Paul Bettany.

The movie is wonderful, and very slashy. The books are even more so. :D I especially love how the characters are written. Stephen Maturin (who Bettany plays in the movie) is one of my favourite characters in literature.

Date: 2010-03-17 04:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
sorry, I can't follow you into that fandom ;)

I am just going nuts allover Jude and Robert at the moment (just bought his CD...GOD, didn't know he can sing!!! *is dead*)

Date: 2010-03-17 11:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tabby-stardust.livejournal.com
Yeah, I know what you mean. I haven't been active in the M&C fandom for a couple of years. And right now Sherlock Holmes is totally my number one obsession as well. :D

I noticed RDJ's album is on Spotify, but haven't listened to it yet. Hmm...

Date: 2010-03-18 06:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
Ohhh you MUST listen to it! I am in the middle of trying to understand all the lyrics to maybe find a song for a slashy Watson/Holmes vid. (I'd have to ask someone else to make lol)

Oh btw, I posted the fic for your special manip on FF.net. I didn't put a link in but mentioned you. I hope that was ok!

It is great story

Date: 2010-03-15 01:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] floratang.livejournal.com
I love it very much, it is brilliant, and want read more of your story about Holmes and Watson.

Re: It is great story

Date: 2010-03-16 06:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
thank you so much for your nice comment! I just had a look at your LJ and woahhh you are chinese or japanese? (sorry when I can't say for sure because of the letters *blush*) I am feeling so honored that you did read this story. I have only written another tiny one so far. It's called "See that walking stick" for the cane challenge at [livejournal.com profile] holmeswatson09

Date: 2010-03-15 03:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladylovelace.livejournal.com
(How did I miss this being posted? I am a dork)

I love how much feeling there is in this. This bit especially:

The forbidden dreams about you, kissing me, doing things to me no one ever has.

I wanted to wash it away with lots of alcohol, drown it with cocaine and morphine.


Does odd things to me. In a good way.

Also I like that it is written in short little bits because I have the attention span of a gnat and this is exactly how I wish everything was written.

Date: 2010-03-16 06:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
lol you are definately no dork. You save my day in betaing so fast *VBG*

Thanks for pointing your favourite line out to me :D I like that one too because I wanted to show how helpless Holmes felt and REALLY tried not to fall in love with his "dear Watson". I think you can see that particular scene in the beginning of the movie ;)

*looking up gnat*...okay lol something like a moscito...

I've never written a story in this way, only drabbles. I'm glad you like it in this form :D:D

Date: 2010-10-05 09:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lizzie-sparrow1.livejournal.com
WOW. I can't put into words just how beautiful this is! The expressions of total love between them is so touching I have to almost cry...simply amazing. And goes perfectly with tabby stardust's totally gorgeoous photo. You guys rock SO hard it's sick...LOL! Thanks for sharing--it's wonderful.

Date: 2010-10-06 09:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
Hello! THANKS SO MUCH for your very very kind words for this unusual story! You know, when I saw Tabby's manip the words just floated into my brain like that and I could FEEL the deep love between them. It's one of the most perfect photomanips I have ever seen.

Are you new to the SH09 fandom? I got distracted already from it, just in case you're wondering since you friended me. But when you click on the Holmes and Watson tag, you'll find everything I have done for them. :D

Date: 2010-10-06 08:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lizzie-sparrow1.livejournal.com
I am fairly new to it, but once I got into it, it was love at first site with them! OMG--they're perfect for one another. They're absolutely my favorite couple of anyone. LOVE RDJ always, but after seeing the pics that Tabby's done---especially the first one I ever saw, (which was the one of the two of them asleep with the hands over Watson's crotch--that is the most BEAUTIFUL photo of anything that I've EVER seen)--I was searching all over to find more of them. Found her other ones, and then when I saw your WONDERDFUL story about this picture--probably my second favorite picture after that other one--it just really touched me & kind of makes me cry reading it. It fits SO completely with the photo. I am SO in love with them. Wow. I have to go and read more of your writing, because this is just so spot-on about their relationship. Beautiful! :D

Date: 2010-10-07 08:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
I think I haven't seen that manip you are mentioning yet!! Must be the newest one? I never seem to have enough time lol

Thanks again for your kind words about my writing!!!!! It really makes me happy and gives me the feeling that I am not as bad as I think I am as an author!

I fell in love with the two when I saw the movie poster. And that movie, just ROCKS!!!! I think I know it by heart. The sparks that fly between them, when they look at each other is just SO AMAZING! And I absolutely love a powerful Watson! I didn't like Jude before, but now I am a BIG fan!!!! And Robert is just hot as hell...as Tony Stark too ;)

Date: 2010-10-05 10:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lizzie-sparrow1.livejournal.com
Man, after reading this AGAIN, I'd have to say that I wish I could find a man who loved ME as much as these two love each other...absolutely gorgeous. I'm in total awe...damn. I just love the way the two care about one another, and especially touching is the manner in which Watson watches over Holmes and protects him from basically himself...so heartwarming. I feel all warm & fuzzy inside! :)

Date: 2010-10-06 09:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] delorita.livejournal.com
I felt warm and fuzzy when I wrote it too. I am so glad about your feedback! I was so unsure to write them. Yes, Holmes might be a bit smarter, but Watson surely knows how to look after his eccentric friend. *VBG*

Date: 2010-10-06 08:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lizzie-sparrow1.livejournal.com
Awww, yes, he certainly does. ♥♥♥ SO sweet! :D

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